Sunday
Diet not being so good the last couple of days, but its now 4pm and all is well! Gearing up for a nice roast tonight and the return of Shaun and Molly.
Did the gym thing today - and really chuffed that no more shin splints! Noticed it running up and down the hall in Boxercise the other night, so gave it a go. 8 mins, few mins break walking, then another 5. Didn't push it anymore as was a bit worried, what with the 3 classes tomorrow night! All seems good, bit tight in the calves but otherwise fine.
12st 11 this morning. 1 more before Tuesday would be good.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Friday, August 15, 2014
15th August - a small ask.
If you follow/read/get my blog (whether you want to or not!) - please could you leave me a comment?
I thought this was defunct - and I can't change the settings, and I find I don't want to either.
But it is a little odd knowing its 'live' out there - this has been a massive outpouring of boring statistical information, a record of past events and also very personal feelings of inadequacy.
So please let me know if you see this.
Thank you.
I thought this was defunct - and I can't change the settings, and I find I don't want to either.
But it is a little odd knowing its 'live' out there - this has been a massive outpouring of boring statistical information, a record of past events and also very personal feelings of inadequacy.
So please let me know if you see this.
Thank you.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
13th august
So I went up to an 8kg today :) and it was easier than I expected!!!
Penticosts went home this morning, it was hard not eating what I shouldn't.
Day off diet yesterday, ate too much, regretted it in class today (regretted it anyway).
Weight not moving, bit worried about that.
No Mike until Monday -worried about that too...so box and bike with Chris. Hmm. Might not be up for that, but don't think I have a choice.
Sat Jason bike and kettle, should be ok. Ok being the operative word.
Sun kettle with Chris. F*cked off about that!!
Then Monday doing a triple class! That might make up for it....!
But then he's off all week then I'm off.... holy moley....
15th August 2014
gah. gah. gah. Struggling SO much to keep on the straight and narrow food wise. The weeks ahead of me seem to be so hard - not for the diet, but the change of routine! I had everything worked out, was working out every day. But now Mike is off for a week then I am off for a week. The other trainers are OK but I am down and not motivated at all. I have a weekend away next weekend and the food available will be fish and chips and hog roast!!!!!!! Going to try and have a treat day maybe on the Sunday and take as much as I can on the Saturday. I wonder if I will be able to buy food there? I have emailed Dave from the CLDF to see if I can buy stuff there.
Then its a week in the caravan - I hope I don't go stir crazy :/ Only 3 classes that week in nearby St Ives but omg.
Mike has promised that the last 2 weeks we will go all guns blazing, but I've not lost a thing this week. I was perfectly on track today, then ate 2 bags of chocolate buttons that I found in the fridge. WHY?! Feels like I am slipping back into old ways and I am scared scared scared.
I want to carry this on - next year I want to be STRONG. I want to surf, be able to do a handstand. Lose the baggy skin that I seem to have been left with (I hate it but am realistic that it will take time to snap back, I am 45 after all, even if I do only feel 23).
And I feel BORED. Cos the workouts aren't there. My oompf is here but I feel like pacing pacing pacing cos I am BORED. Molly and shaun are away. Daisy is camping with her mates. So I have my music on typing this. BORED BORED BORED.
Want to go out dancing!!! And possibly get totally drunk.
Boxercise was OK tonight, but I ended up irritated at the end. NOT the normal feeling at all. I have got to get past this. But the other trainers are.... well I don't want to be rude even if I FEEL like being rude. But ARGH. Spoilt, thats what we are. Mike has spoiled us by being brilliant.
Now I feel like bloody crying cos I can see it all going to shit.
I WILL NOT FAIL. I CAN NOT FAIL. I have already done so much. ITS NOT ENOUGH. This challenge is only the beginning. I need to see my goal and aim for it. I need to feel that I can. I can almost taste it but these weeks......
So now I have done what Mike said, and vented to him. But then its his weekend away and now I feel stupid.
Excellent. Just added to my mood.
I am NOT doing kettle on Sunday with Chris. I will do double kettle on Monday instead. WITH THE 8KG.
What do they say? 'Hear me ROAR'.
I DID A GREAT 30 MINS INSANITY TODAY. Felt strong and good. I need to remember that. And Boxercise may have been frustrating, but I nailed it. No problems there apart from a little easing off because of my hip. But I worked HARD.
So the only problem is the food. So, pull it together Morris. Sort you fucking head out and DO IT. You have over a week . You did two weeks at the beginning with no wavering. Do it again. And again. And again. Until you ARE where you want to be. I WILL BE INVINCIBLE.
Penticosts went home this morning, it was hard not eating what I shouldn't.
Day off diet yesterday, ate too much, regretted it in class today (regretted it anyway).
Weight not moving, bit worried about that.
No Mike until Monday -worried about that too...so box and bike with Chris. Hmm. Might not be up for that, but don't think I have a choice.
Sat Jason bike and kettle, should be ok. Ok being the operative word.
Sun kettle with Chris. F*cked off about that!!
Then Monday doing a triple class! That might make up for it....!
But then he's off all week then I'm off.... holy moley....
15th August 2014
gah. gah. gah. Struggling SO much to keep on the straight and narrow food wise. The weeks ahead of me seem to be so hard - not for the diet, but the change of routine! I had everything worked out, was working out every day. But now Mike is off for a week then I am off for a week. The other trainers are OK but I am down and not motivated at all. I have a weekend away next weekend and the food available will be fish and chips and hog roast!!!!!!! Going to try and have a treat day maybe on the Sunday and take as much as I can on the Saturday. I wonder if I will be able to buy food there? I have emailed Dave from the CLDF to see if I can buy stuff there.
Then its a week in the caravan - I hope I don't go stir crazy :/ Only 3 classes that week in nearby St Ives but omg.
Mike has promised that the last 2 weeks we will go all guns blazing, but I've not lost a thing this week. I was perfectly on track today, then ate 2 bags of chocolate buttons that I found in the fridge. WHY?! Feels like I am slipping back into old ways and I am scared scared scared.
I want to carry this on - next year I want to be STRONG. I want to surf, be able to do a handstand. Lose the baggy skin that I seem to have been left with (I hate it but am realistic that it will take time to snap back, I am 45 after all, even if I do only feel 23).
And I feel BORED. Cos the workouts aren't there. My oompf is here but I feel like pacing pacing pacing cos I am BORED. Molly and shaun are away. Daisy is camping with her mates. So I have my music on typing this. BORED BORED BORED.
Want to go out dancing!!! And possibly get totally drunk.
Boxercise was OK tonight, but I ended up irritated at the end. NOT the normal feeling at all. I have got to get past this. But the other trainers are.... well I don't want to be rude even if I FEEL like being rude. But ARGH. Spoilt, thats what we are. Mike has spoiled us by being brilliant.
Now I feel like bloody crying cos I can see it all going to shit.
I WILL NOT FAIL. I CAN NOT FAIL. I have already done so much. ITS NOT ENOUGH. This challenge is only the beginning. I need to see my goal and aim for it. I need to feel that I can. I can almost taste it but these weeks......
So now I have done what Mike said, and vented to him. But then its his weekend away and now I feel stupid.
Excellent. Just added to my mood.
I am NOT doing kettle on Sunday with Chris. I will do double kettle on Monday instead. WITH THE 8KG.
What do they say? 'Hear me ROAR'.
I DID A GREAT 30 MINS INSANITY TODAY. Felt strong and good. I need to remember that. And Boxercise may have been frustrating, but I nailed it. No problems there apart from a little easing off because of my hip. But I worked HARD.
So the only problem is the food. So, pull it together Morris. Sort you fucking head out and DO IT. You have over a week . You did two weeks at the beginning with no wavering. Do it again. And again. And again. Until you ARE where you want to be. I WILL BE INVINCIBLE.
Monday, August 11, 2014
11th august
THIS POST IS AMENDED!
I would like to say that: A: I love my friends. I love the support they give me.
The not getting much help quote? Thats not aimed at them, or anyone. Its aimed at me I suppose, because NO ONE can help, it has to come from me.
the Bored thing? Hubby was knackered and fell asleep. Friends were knackered and asleep and rightly so - they are up at 5.30 every morning.
Boring? Yes, because its always boring at the mo. My diet is boring. My life is hectic and I am on the go all the time. When I stop, its boring as I like to be busy, but my friends are ANYTHING BUT boring. I never laugh so much as when I am with them.
I am ranting - because I have to. I was annoyed with myself for not being stronger and for not getting up off my arse and stopping being bored. I just sat there and watched Harry Potter. I didn't have to.
And Dingles was SO much better than it used to be - new rides and so many laughs!
If I thought this post was being read by anyone, I would have explained better what I meant. I knew what I meant, but it is anything but clear if you are reading it from a different perspective.
And I have a massive problem with compliments. Its a tough call for friends of people who are losing weight. If you say too much it looks like they thought you looked shit before. Which you probably did but you are still that person inside.
Only close friends can say the good stuff and get away with it. I knew how it was meant from you guys. I was just angry that I had to take it because I let myself get in a state before.
So - to my wonderful friends who I may have hurt - I love you. This is NOT down to you. Please help me by understanding and believing that I am still the same person I ever was, just that I am currently determined and driven and self absorbed.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
12st 13lb
Really struggling with a couple of things while we have visitors! Diet is hard as there is constantly food and drink on the go. And shaun keeps asking if I want this out that which is really hard and very annoying! Then it's "oh aren't you good"which kind of feels almost derogatory, but isn't. I just don't want to fail and none can say the right thing as it's too raw.
So have picked a few bits I shouldn't have. Too much but nothing that's going to make too much of a difference I think.
Did go out for a roast and I didn't cheat at all, which was great.
Evening was hard and also.....boring! I'm used to, and like, being busy. We just sit aboutwhich is fun chatting but everyone fell asleep at about 8:30 so I was left with the kids watchingharry potter. Why didn't I get up and do something??? Stupid.
Today we are going to dingles i think cos the weather is lousy.at least I won't have a picnic to contend with.my cupboards are full off bloody crisps and shit that I bought so everyone could enjoy it. Don't like it cos I am finding it hard not to eat it!!!
But dingles was boring before, poxy weather spoiling it for us! Beach would have been great at least some surfing, but picnic would have been hard I know.everyone wanted to go to the beachthough, it would have been great, like last time.
I would like to say that: A: I love my friends. I love the support they give me.
The not getting much help quote? Thats not aimed at them, or anyone. Its aimed at me I suppose, because NO ONE can help, it has to come from me.
the Bored thing? Hubby was knackered and fell asleep. Friends were knackered and asleep and rightly so - they are up at 5.30 every morning.
Boring? Yes, because its always boring at the mo. My diet is boring. My life is hectic and I am on the go all the time. When I stop, its boring as I like to be busy, but my friends are ANYTHING BUT boring. I never laugh so much as when I am with them.
I am ranting - because I have to. I was annoyed with myself for not being stronger and for not getting up off my arse and stopping being bored. I just sat there and watched Harry Potter. I didn't have to.
And Dingles was SO much better than it used to be - new rides and so many laughs!
If I thought this post was being read by anyone, I would have explained better what I meant. I knew what I meant, but it is anything but clear if you are reading it from a different perspective.
And I have a massive problem with compliments. Its a tough call for friends of people who are losing weight. If you say too much it looks like they thought you looked shit before. Which you probably did but you are still that person inside.
Only close friends can say the good stuff and get away with it. I knew how it was meant from you guys. I was just angry that I had to take it because I let myself get in a state before.
So - to my wonderful friends who I may have hurt - I love you. This is NOT down to you. Please help me by understanding and believing that I am still the same person I ever was, just that I am currently determined and driven and self absorbed.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
12st 13lb
Really struggling with a couple of things while we have visitors! Diet is hard as there is constantly food and drink on the go. And shaun keeps asking if I want this out that which is really hard and very annoying! Then it's "oh aren't you good"which kind of feels almost derogatory, but isn't. I just don't want to fail and none can say the right thing as it's too raw.
So have picked a few bits I shouldn't have. Too much but nothing that's going to make too much of a difference I think.
Did go out for a roast and I didn't cheat at all, which was great.
Evening was hard and also.....boring! I'm used to, and like, being busy. We just sit aboutwhich is fun chatting but everyone fell asleep at about 8:30 so I was left with the kids watchingharry potter. Why didn't I get up and do something??? Stupid.
Today we are going to dingles i think cos the weather is lousy.at least I won't have a picnic to contend with.my cupboards are full off bloody crisps and shit that I bought so everyone could enjoy it. Don't like it cos I am finding it hard not to eat it!!!
But dingles was boring before, poxy weather spoiling it for us! Beach would have been great at least some surfing, but picnic would have been hard I know.everyone wanted to go to the beachthough, it would have been great, like last time.
Saturday, August 09, 2014
9th augusr
So I was panicking. Thought I hadn't lost anymore, not making headway into the next stone. But I have!
12stone 13lb today.
If I was 14st 6lb (if I remember right)
I have lost 1 and a half stone.
Half a stone to go and I've got 5 weeks.
If I lose 2lb/week, that's 10lb. I'll be over.
If I lose 3lb/week? Super happy,
I'll have lost 2.5 stone.
3.5 since Jan.
Well on my way, never though t I would do that.
My aim? 4 stone.
11 and a half stone.
Not sure what size I would be - 14? 12-14?
Something to think about.
Sorry faltered slightly today, but only very slightly.
It was hard as the Penticosts have come to stay. Lots of food and drink.
Well be easier tomorrow as I am ready for it now!! Day off Tuesday, going out to eat, lovely.
12stone 13lb today.
If I was 14st 6lb (if I remember right)
I have lost 1 and a half stone.
Half a stone to go and I've got 5 weeks.
If I lose 2lb/week, that's 10lb. I'll be over.
If I lose 3lb/week? Super happy,
I'll have lost 2.5 stone.
3.5 since Jan.
Well on my way, never though t I would do that.
My aim? 4 stone.
11 and a half stone.
Not sure what size I would be - 14? 12-14?
Something to think about.
Sorry faltered slightly today, but only very slightly.
It was hard as the Penticosts have come to stay. Lots of food and drink.
Well be easier tomorrow as I am ready for it now!! Day off Tuesday, going out to eat, lovely.
Tuesday, August 05, 2014
Kettlercise Challenge 5th August 2013
Week 6 Plus 1 day. this is it! The second half...... time to work out like a maniac. Scarily - week after next Mike is on holiday, then the following week i am on holiday. SOOOOOO scared. will do as many classes without him as I can but bricking it. How can I lose a stone with all that going on?!?
Hmm. Anyway, thats the future. This weekend threw a spanner in the works - Leopallooza festival was certainly a challenge!
Also, think the scales were off last week - more like 13stone 1 as when I moved them they added 2lb then took them off again!!
This morning weighed 13st 3lb.
I am not surprised, nor am I regretful. The festival: well, no elec so couldn't take food. NO options for me at all - all carb loaded. So I had the weekend off and it was fab!
Been back on the diet for 2 days and nil problemos at all. All good.
Exercise yesterday consisted of 20mins on cross trainer to warm up then a really good Kettle Round 6 - blasted it! Felt strong and in control. Not to say it wasn't hard! But loved it and completed it.
Physio this morning - got exercises to do and she is taking advice from a 'groin specialist' (woo hoo?), got to go back in a month unless i hear from her. She thinks the problem is two-fold. One is deep muscle in my bum. The other she is worried about the joint itself. We shall wait and see!
Although my weight hasn't dropped my clothes are looser again. Will measure soon.
Exercise today:
4pm Boxercise at home with Mike, mainly for Daisy but obviously did it too!
5.30pm Boxercise
6.45pm half hour bike (easy one)
Tomorrow:
7.05am Bike 50 mins
12.30 Kettlercise
Thurs: Day off - No hcore - sob!!!!!!!!! panicking a bit about this.
Friday: 12pm Insanity, 5.45 Boxercise
Saturday: 8am Bike, 9.am Kettlercise
UPDATE: Just remembered Mike said he was doing a 10am Kettle class on a Sunday all through August. Happy girl, that sorts THAT little problem out.
Hmm. Anyway, thats the future. This weekend threw a spanner in the works - Leopallooza festival was certainly a challenge!
Also, think the scales were off last week - more like 13stone 1 as when I moved them they added 2lb then took them off again!!
This morning weighed 13st 3lb.
I am not surprised, nor am I regretful. The festival: well, no elec so couldn't take food. NO options for me at all - all carb loaded. So I had the weekend off and it was fab!
Been back on the diet for 2 days and nil problemos at all. All good.
Exercise yesterday consisted of 20mins on cross trainer to warm up then a really good Kettle Round 6 - blasted it! Felt strong and in control. Not to say it wasn't hard! But loved it and completed it.
Physio this morning - got exercises to do and she is taking advice from a 'groin specialist' (woo hoo?), got to go back in a month unless i hear from her. She thinks the problem is two-fold. One is deep muscle in my bum. The other she is worried about the joint itself. We shall wait and see!
Although my weight hasn't dropped my clothes are looser again. Will measure soon.
Exercise today:
4pm Boxercise at home with Mike, mainly for Daisy but obviously did it too!
5.30pm Boxercise
6.45pm half hour bike (easy one)
Tomorrow:
7.05am Bike 50 mins
12.30 Kettlercise
Thurs: Day off - No hcore - sob!!!!!!!!! panicking a bit about this.
Friday: 12pm Insanity, 5.45 Boxercise
Saturday: 8am Bike, 9.am Kettlercise
UPDATE: Just remembered Mike said he was doing a 10am Kettle class on a Sunday all through August. Happy girl, that sorts THAT little problem out.
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